No its Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu.
Some of my friends have been telling me that I should try BJJ for a
while now and to be honest I have been a little timid about it. I have wanted
to, but I have just been scared. So about 2 weeks ago at a dinner party with
some friends, I brought it up, saying I wanted to do it but was nervous. Of
course one of my friends (who is also one of the BJJ instructor) said, “well
why don’t you”. I said, I didn’t know how comfortable I would be, being that
close to a guy and blah blah blah…the normal fear filled excuses that I give
myself every time I sit watching them do it. Of course, they all encouraged me
to try it.
But let’s be honest, I already run, I do kickboxing, and I do boot camp...no
that is not the problem, the problem is what if I totally suck at it? I hate failing
at things, and I am just now getting decent at kickboxing, maybe I should just
focus on that. BUT I want to try it, it looks fun and even though I do all the
other stuff…I feel trapped, like something is missing and none of those thing
release it. I want to hit something and sparing is just out of the question (for
now), I like my pretty face!
Anywho, the next week one of my friends came up to me and handed me a
brand new mouth guard (purple – my fav color) and said that he really though I
should try it and that I would like it so he got this for me. I smiled…how could
I say no to that! I didn’t get to try it that week…but I did try it this week.
AND HOLY MOLY I freaking loved it! What a rush! I may suck at it, but it relaxed me and helped
me to find a zen that I don’t find with anything else. I have to think, fight,
and think…it is great! I know I know…I said think twice, but you do! It is
mental and physical!
My trainer took me through the starting set up of how you do it and
some basic moves, blocks and things. And I even got a chance to roll with 2 of
the guys at my Kung Fu School and it was amazing! A-FREAKING-Mazing!!! The fear
of being that close to a man and trapped…didn’t bother me at all, I guess
because I trust the guys that I train with and I wasn’t actually half bad…for
my first time. LOL. Don’t worry, I know they were being nice to me and taking
it easy on me.
I always thought it was for guys…and seeing one or two other girls do
it gave me courage, I should have listened to my trainers and friends sooner, I
feel like I could have been doing this for much longer. Either way, I am glad I
finally found it, I am glad I finally stepped up and did it and I am glad that
I found something to offer me a peace that I didn’t have before. Somewhere to
take out my aggression more (sometime the bag just isn’t enough) and something
to completely challenge my mind!
I woke up sore as hell the next day and covered in bruises and I loved
every one of them! I can’t wait until next Thursday so I can do it again and
again and again! There may only be 7 days in the week, but I wish there were 8
just so I could do BJJ 2 days instead of just one!!!
I don’t know which I like more, the mental aspect or the physical
aspect…but I love it and I plan on doing it every week from now on! :) I am already looking forward to Next Thursday!
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